Don't let your past steal your future

oh hello there.
my very first post for 2010.
hahaha yes.
basically i've been sick since last year.
HAHAHA!!
okay2 since wednesday.
yes sick me.
spent my new year's eve at one fullerton.
counting down to 2010.it was full of people like little ants crawling yes.
this year's new year's eve i tell you i would probably count down some where  there's no one.
new year,new beginning.
TO NEW BEGINNING!!!!



“Don’t you just love New Years? You get to start all over. Everybody gets a second chance.”

well hello there.
this is the last post before new year's eve.
you know just in case i forgot about tomorrow or something.
yes yes.
a lot of things happened this past few days.
well not.
just the E36C bbq gathering that's all.
i always love when a new month is coming.this is even better because it's a new year coming.
tons of things happened during 2009.
tons till i can make a chapter out of this "Welcome to the life of Nurul Hadainah" book.
yes yes.
one year one chapter.
so there's probably 18 chapters now.
hah!
okay whatever,as usual please click the 'x' button on the top right corner if your mind is saying "damn this is boring"
but whatever.
let me briefly or summarise what happened in 2009.lets start from january and all the way to today.

-recontacted a friend(aha you know who right)
-o levels results
-fell in love(stupid dainah)
-chalet with sec 5
-worked in my own school
-new school yes yes RP.
-orientation programme
-first semester(April)
-new classmates
-meet new people
-June holidays
-lost a friend
-more new friends
-make close friends
-fall out of love
-exams
-August holidays
-second semester(October)
-new classmates
-new friends
-more than a friend i could say
-18th birthday
-drifted apart with a friend
-make close friends
-reattach back with a friend
-exams
-December holidays

Probably the shortest summary ever but yeah.

okay another thing is i don't know why but this year i'm like into movies.
2009 is must go to the movies year!
list of movies i've watched in the cinemas:

Curious Case of Benjamin Button
Coming Soon
17 Again
Transformers 2(Twice)
Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince
G.I Joe
Proposal
Year One
500 days of Summer
New Moon
Avatar

it's actually not a lot but compare to 2008!
again 'x' button there.
i think i'll sop here.
i'll continue if i remember tomorrow!
:)

sometimes i wonder.
why not all things have a cure?
for example.cancer.
it's painful to see someone fighting cancer,going through therapy.
it's more sad to see someone young to fight cancer.
and here we are living in a normal life complaining about those little things.
while there's other people fighting their life.
the feeling of seeing someone fighting their life and you know they won't be here for a long time.
it's really sad.

hi livejournal.
i'm here again.
okay whatever i want to be emo as i want i don't care anymore.
i can't think a reason why i need to be happy,now.
i'm getting bad grades.
yes world i'm not coping well with school.
great dainah great.

i'm even pissed off with myself because i can't even gain 1kg.
in fact that i lose weight.
great dainah
keep up the "good" job.

it sucks being this state.
yes world it sucks.
whatever you can click on the "x" on the top right corner there.
thank you very much.

if you are still here.
well maybe you're one of my greatest friends or you're just kpo.
yes kpo.
don't tell me to cheer up or whatever.
i know i will,sooner or later.
just let me feel suckish for awhile.
because i just had a wake up call from somewhere up there.

Eeeee dainah.
you have eye bags.
pimples.
Eeeeee
disgusting.
well everybody have their insecurities right?

hi i'm here again.
i think i realised something.
something i should realised months ago.

you always needed me.
i'm just someone who you need.
but i'm nothing special to you.

i'm not the one who you actually being proud with.

now i know.

it's okay i'm used to it.

okay holidays are here.
3 weeks of holidays.
tons of things to do.
school will reopen when it's 2010.
IT'S 2010??!!!
when that happened?
i shall think about my 2010 resolution,need some soul-searching while doing 2010 resolution.
one secret is that i didn't even did all the things in my 2009 resolution.
but part of me is scared about 2010.
what is going to be?

another year like 2009?
worst?
better?

don't worry livejournal.
i've not abandon you.
i know i only come to you when i'm feeling sad or whatever.
you're one of my source which i can let out my feelings and thoughts.
don't worry.
i've not abandon you.
anyway,livejournal you don't have feelings like people right?

the state of feeling which makes you high up in the air.
smiling to those little cute short or even one word messages.
when you think about it, one day something can make you really happy and hoping the day would not end.
the next thing you know,what happened?
you tried go back trying to find out what was the mistakes and keep on asking yourself why?
i hate this kind of feeling.the feeling of going up high and fall down back to the ground.
it sucks.

i have a lot in my mind.
why does those things happen?
like we say,take the past as a lesson learned.

Been busy with tests and all.
Tomorrow is the last paper which is maths.
ohhhh my and now i'm mugging and also multi-tasking.

hope things can better after UT1 and shall improve myself.
i shall!!!!!

i'm curious.
when you fall in love why does the feeling comes from the heart.
i only know the heart pumps blood.
why when you get excited people said there's butterflies in your stomach.
i know "butterflies in your stomach fluttering" is just a metaphor.
but why literally there's something fluttering, i know stomach only needs food and water.
then when you fall out of love.
why there's a pain feeling in your heart like "broken".
but actually the heart is not broken it still pumps blood.
where do feeling come from?
brain? i know the brain only control our body.
heart?i know the heart pumps blood and keep us alive.
and sometimes you can breathe properly.
what makes you feel this way?
why?


i think too much.
okay going to mug now CHEMISTRY FTW!
-.-

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within
your chest?
-it isn’t love, it’s like.

You can`t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
-it isn’t love, it’s lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
- it isn’t love, it’s pride.

Do you want them because you know they`re there?
-it isn’t love, it’s loneliness.

Are you there because it`s what everyone wants?
-it isn’t love, it’s loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
-it isn’t love, it’s low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don`t want to hurt
them?
-it isn’t love, it’s pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
-it isn’t love, it’s infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
-it isn’t love, it’s friendship.

Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of?
-it isn’t love, it’s a lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
-it isn’t love, it’s charity.


 

Does your heart ache and break when they`re sad?
-then it’s love.


Do you cry for their pain, even when they`re strong?
-then it’s love.


Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
-then it’s love.


Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and
relation pulls you close and holds you there?
-then it’s love.


Do you accept their faults because they`re a part of who they are?
-then it’s love.


Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
-then it’s love.


Would you then give them your heart, your life, your death?

 

-found in someone's tumblr!